Well the first thing you must be asking is WTF is FUBAR well for all you people out there who don’t know what it is hmmm well I will tell you it stands for F****d Up Beyond All Repair.
Why am I Mentally as well as Physically FUBAR you might ask well there is too many things on my plate right now with my ventures finally on the road and starting too many ventures at one shot is not a good idea and is very very taxing am really stressed out and I am beginning to feel that I have lost the ability to relax or in fact forgotten how to have fun all together. All the time I find myself working working working and then when I am not working I find myself thinking thinking thinking about the ventures and the pros and cons, marketing , financial forecasting , competitor analysis etc etc there is a constant battle going on in my head well that is all that I do now work think work think eat and sleep .
Coming down with a mild attack of malaria gave me a much needed break from my actual 9 to 5 job (yes am stuck there till I can hand over and move on) The break had to be cut shot because you cant afford to relax when you are in a startup mode if it was just a break from my work then I would have taken a few days off and got paid for it but when you are the person in charge of a startup you worry about optimal use of the resources at your disposal before your startup is secure both financially and also in capturing the market share of the market that you are entering into.
But the working during the day and monitoring and working on my strategies and ideas at night is a very very taxing ritual am actually cursing myself for not having the ability to walk away from something that I help build for two years and not worrying about the future of that entity and just concentrate on my own ventures but I guess am emotionally attached to my current job but now the question remains to be seen is for how long can I take it before I snap.
And as if holding a 9 to 5 job working on two startups was not enough I am also mentoring 6 university projects with a group of around 24 people in total. Well all I can say to myself now is learn to relax and unwind asap otherwise you are headed to the mad house hahahahaha
Well Maybe blogging might be one of the stress busters some of my other stress busters normally are Beer and Music. Music I still listen too but beer is not yet on the menu for me as am still on medication for recovery from malaria.
Once I fully recover and am off the medication am back to beer gulping, potato chips munching , salad eating, music listening, restaurant hopping and constantly blogging hot blooded male and then will be a bit more relaxed but i guess the only time i can relax now is hmmmmmm never well why you ask well once this startups mature to sustainable businesses am moving onto the next challenge have already mentally sketched the blueprint for my next startup it’s in a totally different industry and all I can say is it is a very very challenging industry.